Uncertainty assails me as I am in two minds regarding the behaviour of a strong character in one of my stories; the title it holds for now is- ” To go or not to go – A family hell beckons”. Needless to say, it is not my usual story talking romance, but a dark family plot. It might also sound like typical family drama (nothing new), but well – I do wish to try my hand at it.
Samadhi- an Inner Consciousness
Samadhi, a woman in her late sixties, had been forced out of her home a year ago. Living on government welfare and in a house run by the women welfare committee now, she has slowly recovered from the betrayal and started living a normal life. Since the last two weeks, she had started earning her keep by volunteering to do the housekeeping for similar houses run by the committee. She now remembers the young girl she had once been – a young girl with dreams. She is slowly getting close to the meaning of her name – life and balance of inner consciousness. The enlightenment. Until–
A phone call wakes her one night. She rises and takes the call. It was the house superintendent. They were looking for her and wanted her to come back. As she puts the phone down, she finally realizes she has to take a stand. She may be broke, but she is not broken. The last year had shown her that. Something in her has reared its head up with a vengeance to take back her life, her own happiness. Time has come for her to take action against those who have made her life such a hell hole- her own family!
But first, some questions that plague her need to be looked at-
1) Should she forgive the matriarch of the family, who ruled the roost and had made her life an absolute misery right from the first day of her marriage? It was in the name of tradition that she took immense pleasure in her cruel ways, keeping this new bride away from her newly wedded husband, and later on being the cause of constant marital conflict? Would it be right to call her out on her actions, considering she is physically incapacitated ?
2) Over the years, as the woman became older, she knew sadness was her shadow. But she bravely rallied on. She had thought it couldn’t get worse- but it did. The family she had spent the last forty years loving and supporting turned against her, forgetting the fact that had it not been for her, they might never have made it so good.
Should she forgive them all, who when she needed their support, one by one turned against her, isolated her and became the cause of constant mental pain? What should be her attitude towards such a family in her old days?
3) The man she had fallen in love with and married, the man she sacrificed her once successful nursing career for, the man she should have had by her side as a friend, as her constant support, but the man who never had been-not even when she was in pain or when she gave birth to his child, risking her life for the heir, had declared in the end that he had never loved her.
Thanks to the matriarch, she was constantly berated and ignored by him all her married life. Last year, he had got her declared insane and turned her out of her own house, thanks to the constant plotting and planning of his family. He had even mocked her existence as he had turned her out. When she had beseeched him, asked him to not turn her out – didn’t he love her at all, he had laughed at her. Who could love her, he had said.
The same man from over a year ago, the same man she had lived with all her years was now calling her. He is now bed ridden & repents his actions- or so he says. He wants her to come back to be by his side. Should she go back to him ?
This is the ultimate question— Should Samadhi forgive and forget all those, who forced her own mother out of her family home when she had come calling and been in need of her daughter, leaving in misery to never return, to the day she died?
Can all the bitter memories be washed away ? With what exactly?
Forgiveness is an admirable human virtue, but should it be practised for those who don’t believe in repenting for their sins and create constant misery?
What about the law of Karma? What should she do in such circumstances? My own heart urges me to teach them all a lesson, to be unforgiving. But what about you?
The more opinions, the better. 🙂
When they finally showed the pre-cap for the show, I wanted to say- well now, the story has finally begun between Saras and Kumud. Until now, it was just a foreplay that went on. Now they will actually start with the game of love.
What a downfall from the heights of rosy imagination! Kusum teases Kumud about the letter from Saraswatichandra, not knowing the lightning that is going to strike Kumud’s heart. She reads the letter for Kumud and stops, unable to read the horror that is written in the letter. Saras has denied any interest in marrying Kumud!
When Kumud reads it for herself, she feels herself falling deep into an abyss. How quickly can one’s mood change, how deeply can one’s heart sink. How much can one person’s words affect another? Her shock is not unwarranted. How could a man send a proposal and then send rejection too? How did that work?
The more she thinks about it, the angrier she gets. Saraswatichandra had mocked her family, insulted it. Worse, he’d insulted her father. She forgets her own suffering, her own shock when she thinks of the reaction of her family once the letter and its contents are shown to them.
Not that she gets a chance to tell them at all. They’re all excited because they’re going to a cyber café to see family’s first son-in-law on the computer, via video conferencing. While Saras had been writing his refusal and Kumud digesting it, their fathers had arranged for a video conference so that they may speak to each other.
It was quite touching to see her father acknowledging the efforts of her daughter’s wisdom. It was Kumud who had brought cyber café into existence in their village. And now her wisdom will bear fruit, in the form of Saraswatichandra’s face. Or so her father thinks!
The only person in the family who still feels wrong about all this is Dugba; her badi-ma. Despite her protests, the whole family travels onwards to the cyber café. It is time, as Guman appropriately mentioned, for a “dhamaka” (an explosion) in the story.
Saras feels he’s not done it exactly right when sending the letter to Kumud. He feels he’s not apologized for his actions enough. His rejection for the proposal has been enough for a shock for Laxminandan anyway. What would his reaction be if he found out about the letter? One thing puzzles Saras though while his father talks about he and Kumud coming online for a video conference. He’d sent the letter with his refusal. How is it then that Vidyachatur has not responded back to it. Did the letter reach the right hands? Had Kumud not told her father about it then? He has to wait and see.
Kumud feels tied in knots, trying to find words and situation where she can talk to her “bapu” (father) about the letter. Her anger deepens against Saras. He’s the one who’s put her in this position. Her eyes ice up as she thinks of what she wants to tell him.
And this is where the pre-cap comes in. I’m all agog to see what she says and how Saraswatichandra responds to her anger, her challenge.